Verse 1

Your only seeing what I'm showing on the surface
Cause deep within me I am always feeling worthless
I'm chasing my dreams and i'll go the furthest
Since I was a teen I've always been real nervous

This anxiety I carry in a surplus-
Cause humanity has really got me losing purpose
I always speak but on the inside I am wordless
I feel like a freak, do I belong in a circus

insecurities are weighing me down
Always felt that immaturity had made me a clown
Now i'll never have the purity i'm raving about
Cause I feel that spiritully I'm displaying a frown

I never eat so i'm always feeling sick
But it's peak I don't understand what the cause of it is.
Could be the drink or because of all the spiffs
I'm on the brink and edging closer off of it

Hook:
These random thoughts in my head
Of course are making me stressed
I wasn't born so depressed
But here I am

Its not the norm to confess
That you've got thorns in your chest
When we were taught to repress
The way we stand

This life will tear you a part
And we will all wear the scars
You cannot prepare your heart
For what is next

Mistakes are making me smart
That's why I want to depart
And go and make a new start
Cause that is best

Verse 2

I wanna travel cause i've had a taste of that life
But it's been years and I cannot save the cash right
Now I feel fear and I think it's from the last time-
Cause failure sears in the memories of my trapped mind

I love to Rap and it's something i'm focused on-
Although I still think that i'm crap even when others say i'm wrong
That's me attacking the only place I belong-
But I refuse to take a back seat till they're playing all my songs

I feel bad about my size but it won't change
I guess it's cause of getting high back in those days
Or maybe drinking on the sly made my growth strange
I think i'm sinking deep inside but it's ok

Working this 9-5 lifes got me twisted-
I'm empty inside cause I struggle to find a misses
I've come to realise it's cause of how this kid is
I still can't turn it off at night like a shit switch

Hook:
These random thoughts in my head
Of course are making me stressed
I wasn't born so depressed
But here I am

Its not the norm to confess
That you've got thorns in your chest
When we were taught to repress
The way we stand

This life will tear you a part
And we will all wear the scars
You cannot prepare your heart
For what is next

Mistakes are making me smart
That's why I want to depart
And go and make a new start
Cause that is best

Verse 3

At 15 I was on the streets smoking weed.
Until late only went home when I was going sleep
And Now I know why it was anger mum was showing me
she had never had the chance to see me as a growing teen

At that time I didn't care cause I was having fun
I knew that there were problems there but I just had to run
My parents always argued bear so I would smoke a ton
That's probably why I never shared, I was a lonely son

Why do people feel the need to tell me that i'm thin-
Iike I don't ever see a mirror or have had a swim
That shit is deep to me it triggers something bad within
Cause everybody's got a battle they'd be glad to win

We're gunna face a lot of problems in life,
But it takes the bigger man to try and blossom them right
I know some won't understand because it's common to cry.
This life isn't what you planned, don't leave it bottled inside

Hook:
These random thoughts in my head
Of course are making me stressed
I wasn't born so depressed
But here I am

Its not the norm to confess
That you've got thorns in your chest
When we were taught to repress
The way we stand

This life will tear you a part
And we will all wear the scars
You cannot prepare your heart
For what is next

Mistakes are making me smart
That's why I want to depart
And go and make a new start
Cause that is best